stay @ home mum

You turn 5, nadeen murni!

2012-02-09T22:09:00.000+04:00

it was nadeen's 5th birthday last weekend and the party was held at Cafe Ceramique at Festival city. The kids really enjoyed themselves. We got her a pink roller blade like the girls'.

Happy birthday zicky!

Impromtu playdate at ruby's villa ..

2012-02-02T14:04:00.000+04:00

Went to Ruby's house at Al war'qaa with sue piracci. The kids had fun and 3 of us went to Arabian Center to shop and what a bargain!

DSF

2012-02-01T19:49:00.000+04:00

DSF (dubai sale festival) damages. Happy.

till next year,

cucuk-satay by SMG

2012-02-01T19:38:00.000+04:00

Had a great day last weekend, the Singapore Malay Group held a *satay* session for everyone to eat for FREE. And some of us brought some malay kueh and I ate alot on that day. BLESS.

Happy 78th to you father!!!

2012-01-30T13:18:00.000+04:00

I was too busy that i forgotten to wish my dad a Happy 78th birthday on 26th January, 2012!!
The last time I got to celebrate with him was in 2010 when I went back singapore for good with the children while hubby stayed behind.
How time flies and I am glad I got to see dad again though I know he is suffering with his illness. With both legs amputated and I am sure he feels very useless but I am thankful that my mum is there for him. She accompanied him to dialysis 3x a week, changed his diaper and bath him. I dont know whether I have the same courage as her if it will to happen to my hubby. I really admired my mother who without fail tried to make father life easier. Sometimes she does complained but who couldnt? SHe has to attend to him 24/7 and she herself is not well too.

I pray to ALLAH that my parents will be amongst those who will go to paradise. In Shaa 'ALLAH

Happy birthday, father!!!

ramblings

2012-01-24T21:17:00.000+04:00

Something good is going to happen to us. Alhamdullilah
And also a pleasant surprised is happening to us and we are thankful and with ALLAH's bless we are going to get back on our feet. In'shaa ALLAH
I hope that our life will get better and better from now on. These passed few years we have lost and found new friends who stand by us eventhough we are in our dire states. I am thankful to have them. And I am not lease *missed* those who run away from us the moment they knew about our situations.

side tracked a bit. I am looking forward to march and hope it will materialised. In'shaa ALLAH...
I pray that this year will be a good year but MY HELPER (housekeeper) is going back to indonesia for good and I know I am going to miss her because I have treated her as a part of this family. Nevertheless, I hope she will change her mind and work for us for many years to come.

At school, haqeem and maya is doing very well. Haqeem is in grade 3 and scored 98% for overall marks for term 1 examination and maya is in grade 1 and scored 97% for overall marks for term 1 examination. Alhamdullilah
But we have to give more moral support and encouragement to maya because she is extremely shy at school and hence, everytime she refused to do her work eventhough she knows. She is afraid that she will make mistakes and people will laugh at her. According to her teacher, when she was alone she can talk and answered anything that her teacher asked her to do. We were dumbfounded because when she was 3 years old, we send her to ballet school and she never cried eventhough other kids were crying, she will followed what the instructor asked her to do confidently....

ok so today is a mixture of so many things i want to write but have no time. next time i will write a bit more about each story. lol.

till then,

regrets

2012-01-15T23:40:00.001+04:00

REGRETS

if you asked me if i have any regrets in my 39 years of life, I would said i do have one. If I would turn back the clock I will be someone more successful or/and contented. When I was 16 years old, i had plan what i want to achieve in my life. By 18years old, i would have got my driving license and when i turn 21 years old, my dad will buy for me a car. so i thought. And i dont want to work 9to5 job in a cubicle!
By now, If I would be selfish enough and follow my heart and desire, I would be a high flyer merchandiser/buyer for a high end luxury brands, or I might have become a household name for a chic botiq. I let go an opportunity to go london and trained to be a merchandiser for marks & spencer. All because of LOVE. So throughout my adulthood, i did not stay in a company for long because my desire is on FASHION and not about people life and divorce! Yep, I joined the norm to be a legal secretary and a 'respected' career. I was really unhappy. I was trapped. But I did not know what to do and hence I just leave it and days become months and years...i just give in. But inside I was struggling and I had enough and though it took me 10 years to finally say ' i quit'... i felt happy......
With what i've gone through, i hope i will make sure my children will not make the same ' mistakes' i've made. I will make sure they achieve whatever they desire big or small and work hard to get it. I want them to have a fullfilled life and most importantly being HAPPY.

And the thing that I have no regrets was meeting my husband. I am really lucky to meet someone who accept me az what I am. Though Both of us have different interest but somehow we can bland into one. He is responsible and hardworking and try his best to make me happy. And the best thing in my life is becoming a mummy to four beautiful children! Masya'ALLAH, they ( haqeem, maya, hana, adam) complete me. Through them I have found HAPPINESS...

lots of LOVE,

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Embrace

2011-12-26T21:14:00.002+04:00

Embrace
Firstly, pppppI like to congrats my nephew for joining the daddy-club. Today he welcome his first child, a beautiful princess name Nurina Qurratu Ain to the world. She is such a joy. And today also I am officially become a 'nanny' or ' grandma' to her by default. Lolz.
Life is full of surprises, and sometimes a good thing happened at the wrong time. I am having a mixed feeling about it and though I had talked thru it with hubby and we have come to a conclusion, there is still this nagging feeling. Fear. I am so scared thinking about it. How are we going to cope? What shall we do?
As it is we are already so stressful with what we have now. Sometimes I wonder where have I gone wrong throughout my life. Why it is so hard for me to get something when someone next to me can get it easily?
But something strike while I was watching tv earlier. This 'goodness' came to ME because ALLAH wants me to change my lifestyle. HE wants me to become a better Muslim then what I am now. ALLAH is always the merciful and HE is giving me another chance to get pcloser to HIM more. Subahanallah!
I am thankful though it is not what I had hope for but if it is GOD's will, I shall embrace it.

In Shaa Allah,

Day 3

2011-12-23T23:37:00.002+04:00

Day 3
After 2 weeks of hiatus, I went to gym again today. Before we start our exercise, my trainer took my weight again and was happy to know I lose 1 Kg! Not bad eh?
Thus it motivates me to do more deligently and I really pushed myself to work it out.
I warmed up first before I went p the thread mil n today he set it at 10 mins but a little bit steep. My heartbeat was irregular and at one point it went below 100 and my trainer changed the setting. I was very focus n I did whatever my trainer ask me to do n I really pushed myself harder. After 30mins our session ends and I went for the sauna. It was real good.
After every exercise I will rest at a cafe nearby to have a salad and a bit of me time. And it really helps to release stress. The 3 bambinos are getting naughtier and I didn't know how to discipline them. I have realized that they 'learned' from me and I can spot some aggressiveness in them. They tend to do what I did to them and they do it to their siblings and I really wished that I can change that. So now, I tried not to scream n shout or ignored them. I will try to focus each child whenever anyone come to me to talk, complain or just want to cuddle. I have been a bad mum and my resolution for 2012 is to be a fun n happy mummy and will try my very best to nurture them in a good n healthy environment. I will stop shouting/screaming/ignoring and cane them. Instead I will talk or explain their behavior n the consequence of their behavior. Hopefully I can do it!
Lastly, I do not know whether it is a good news or bad news but I hope it is a blessing to us. May Allah let our journey in 2012 a smooth n easy one. I have hope the best for 2012. Amin

bless,

2011-12-17T12:58:00.000+04:00

Finally the day is here for my 8yrs old circumcise. I felt bad for not being there for him because hubby said it is not necessary! Haq called me to say he is ok after the surgery. Alhamdullilah.

I love u, haq!

X- factor n ramblings

2011-12-10T22:47:00.000+04:00

Too bad Rachel crow of x- factor was send home by the public. Nichole felt bad for indirectly contributed to the outcome. Marcus canty is one lucky dude. He was bottom 2 for three times! And yet he got saved again by the public!
I hope that Josh krajick will win this competition.
Anyway, we went to mushrif park around 5pm but it was dark already. We found a nice spot n set our mat on it and started eating kfc. It was freezing and luckily I bought along a fleece blanket. Maya and Hana were trying on their roller blade while haq n hubby were playing badminton. I did joined them for awhile and i want to encourage my children to be active. When they saw mummy was playing badminton, they were excited to play too. I want to be a positive role model for my children.
Adam was running round the track w yuni and I felt a tinge of jealousy. That should be me running along with him and having fun!!! Instead I can only look from far how happy my 2 years old is. And to make matter worst, yuni helped Adam to 'ride' on a bicycle and he truly enoying it! That sight make me more determined to lose weight so that I will have more energy and be a fun mummy! Nevertheless, it was a simple outing with the kids. They had so much fun that they want to stay at the park forever. They even got to ride on the horsey for dhs10.
I truly wished that I can give more for my bambinos but our current situation does not permit us too. But w Allah blessing, I hope that my children will turn out fine and has a better life than what we can offer them now.

Love my bambinos,

My boo

2011-12-09T15:49:00.003+04:00

My princess, Maya

My baby girl is not a baby anymore. Time flew by so fast and now she is 5 years old and attending grade 1. I was too caught up with not wanting her to grow up so fast that I neglected the importance of early learning. Don't get me wrong, I do teach her abc, 123, colors n shapes but I've never pressure her. Unlike my first born, he can read when he was 3 years old. I know I shouldn't compare, anyway, I have no one to blame but myself.
My girl is not totally clueless, the problem is she lack of confidence. Surprisingly, her maths is excellent and I am proud of her, but when you start to raise your voice, she clammed up. She is doing well too in her Arabic and I love to hear her speaking Arabic with an Arab accents. So cute! Alphabet is the one that she is not sure of. Frankly, I dont know how to teach her for her to understand easily.
As a mum, I feel I have failed her for not teaching her properly. I took for granted that since my first born is easy, so are the rest of my children. Which is not the case.
I am going to make a time table for the kids soon and will get a white board to write important stuffs so we will remember. Since I have make mistake with my 2nd born, I will make sure my 3rd born and my 4th will get full attention from me too.
Overall,Maya is a pretty easy girl. Very obedient n seldom throw tantrums. She will always listen when I said no buying toy. Very gentle n loves loves to dance n pose for the camera. She knows all posed. And she dance well too.
Every mother wants the best for their child and I am amongst them.

To a better future,

X day

2011-12-07T21:25:00.000+04:00

BLACK DAY. was numb.

Day 2

2011-12-05T21:28:00.002+04:00

Day 2
I came at 9am and quickly I get ready. My trainer was waiting for me at the lounge.
Today, he taught me how to use the exercise equipment. I've realized that I am a person who when I set my mind on doing something, I can be very serious. Lolz. Never knew that i have this positive attitude. Maybe I have been too slacking that I have become lazy.
Anyway, first I went on the shoulder press machine, oh boy I could feel the muscle is working, and he set the timer at 5mins only!! Hahaha.. He said he wil increase it gradually as I go along. I felt shy when other people looking at me. I felt so fat and ugly amongst those fit n slimmer ladies there. Next I went on the upper body machine, I could feel pain almost immediately because my arms r really weak. After that, I went on for leg and stomach pressed and I was in a very awkward position n my HUGE tummy get in the way. I think I looked amusing. it went on and on and 1 hour flew by so quickly. My trainer told me to relax in the sauna but I have this eager feeling to get out from the place fast.
So far, I feel happy that I took responsibility to change my lifestyle. I want to show my children that everything is possible if u set your mind. and i noticed that I choose what I eat now, I do it bit by bit. Still had ice cream n junks but in moderation.
I felt lighter although I know I haven't lose any weight yet. I believed it is mind over matter and hence I felt that way.

Towards a healthier lifestyle,

Day 1

2011-11-28T21:39:00.002+04:00

Day 1
The night before I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep. It's a big deal to me because I never exercise before in my whole life. But I was quite athletic in my 20s when I have to run away from my abusive then boyfriend! Lolz. I can run from isetan orchard to plaza singapura with no difficulties. Hah, those were the times...the fitter me (not the naive me).
I woke up early to shower and by 7am, I left the house to send my kids to school. I did'nt have any breakfast n straight o my 1st lesson.
The trainer was friendly. He is very patience with me and only ask me to do those that I can and comfortable. First, I went on the thread mil n walk for 5 mins and gradually he increased the timing. I can feel heat on my body and sweat a bit. Oh he also taught me how to warm up before I can start any exercise! I must remember to bring my iPod to listen to some music.
Thereafter, we proceed to cycling. It is the best work out for overall body. And it will increase energy to your leg. I have to do this to get my leg stronger before I can start any other exercise.
1 hour flew so fast and our session. I am so proud of myself.
Hope to start this healthy lifestyle and will instill it in my children too.

Hooray!!!

Decided

2011-11-28T10:32:00.000+04:00

Decided
I am no longer fat but obese. I don't need a machine to tell me this. Hence, after 1 month of procrastinated, finally I decided to change my lifestyle. Hooray!!
Many reasons to why I finally succumbed to the thing I hate most throughout my life - exercise. Hate to the core. Period. But after my fourth child, I kept on piling on the weight even though I don't eat alot, makes me angry. I can no longer fit into a size 16 ( the biggest that I thought I will be) but I am now promoted to PLUS size department of size 16. I don't longer have a waist nor a flat tummy. But a tummy that look like i am still 9months pregnant! Disgusting! I used to be curvy but never thin or big. Just nice for a 1.53m woman. My shoes size used to be 37 n now it is size 40. I can no longer wear my wedding ring which I misses so much. I can no longer do a lot of things n that make me think about my lifestyle. Going shopping now is a chore, an unhappy trip for me because clothes that I like I couldn't fit. Flipping through fashion magazines n sees those beautiful maxi dress, maxi skirt, satin/chiffon blouses etc....n I can't fit or I look ugly in it, annoyed me.
I'm 39 and I will be in my forties in one year time. So, I've decided If I am to die young at least I die looking pretty n not fat. Hehehe. I dont want when people have to carry me to the grave n they will start cursing me. Lolz. In short, I miss being thin n full of energy. I couldn't believed that I became like this. I am too vain to slack to this stage in my life. I used to be health conscious, and when I was in my 20s, I had promised myself to take care of my body. It don't have to be Big effort, just a small effort will do. So, I pledged that i will only drink water n nothing else(no fizzy drinks, no ice-t,etc). I kept my promises for 10 years until I had my first taste of ice-t. Lolz. The rest is history.
10 years on in my 30s, after 4 babies, I have gone into the same category of woman who let themselves lose and lost. Admittedly, I forgot how to look good n smell nice. Especially the smelling nice part, before I couldn't live without my trustee CHANEL hair mist. People who knows me knew I always smell good. Sadly, now I don't care. I used to take 1 hour to get ready to go out, now only 10 mins. Lolz.
I started to realized how bad shape I am now when my 8 years old boy started to commented on my look. It saddened me that my negligence in taking care of myself effected my son. I cried silently when I knew about what he thinks of me. From there, I told myself that I want to be someone that my son can be proud of. Initially, it was not easy, I was in denial. I told myself "heck, it's my body". Honestly, I am crying inside, I felt like a failure, I don't have confident. My world is crashing down on me. ( so dramatic) .
I cannot joined the kids playing becoz I will get tired easily. I dozed off on the couch the moment my big fat ass touch the sofa. I fell asleep when I am driving! And hv to stop at the road side to catch a 15mins sleep. I fell asleep when I am on the facebook. I fell asleep the moment I sat in a car while hubby is driving n that pissed him off. I got leg cramps. I have severe headache every morning. I have broken sleep at night. I can't sleep lying down but sitting down. I can't tie my shoelace. I cannot pickup things on the floor. I am at my lower stage in my life. Still, I am stubborn.
The wake up called when my online business failed. I still owed hubby money when I started to open the business. I felt useless. It robbed me off whatever little self-worth that I had. And I also realized few of my friends have 'run' away from me. Maybe they feel embarresed having a fat friend with them. Only 2 or 3 remain n give me support. I have realized in order to sell fashion I have to look good. I have to be presentable then maybe I can sell my products. And, with support from hubby emotionally n financially, I've decided to change my lifestyle. So, I have took my first step last month by brisk walking twice a week n I felt good every time.For the first time, I did something good for myself. I promised myself I will try drinking 8 glasses of water everyday. lastly, I have started exercising n hope to achieved my goal.

Cheers to healthy lifestyle,
Julie Mohamed Yusof

life changing

2011-11-14T22:37:00.000+04:00

As a human being, we or rather I will always tend to want something n NOT whether it is important. But as I grow older n wiser (hopefully!) lolz, I have tried my best to stick to what is IMPORTANT only. There are days when I slack n there are days I managed to control my desire.
The point of this blog is about me. Somehow, from a *spoilt* kid I grew into a more responsible person. And as a mother of four young kids, I have to watch what i spend on. But after a while, you tend to forget about all the luxury that you used t have when you were single and working. Nowadays, I can just let go of stuffs when I will start asking myself, do i need another bag? Is this necessary? OMG!! it is sooo prettyyyy, but do i really really need it?!! lolz..something like that..but sometimes it is hard to go cold turkey. lolz. If you know me, I used to get what i want easily. But I have changed for the better. Hopefully, much better than now.
Dont get me wrong, I do want something Nice for birthday or wedding anniversary. To me, it is a MUST and it is only the time I feel that I am entitle to get something I really really want. A day out of 365 days that I feel I have to feel pamper n appreciated. So far, hubby has been nice to get me stuffs, although sometimes I have to wait months to get it, eventually, he will get for me. Syukran habibie! The secret, stop whining. heheh. well I have been with him for 9 yrs of cause I know his character. lol.
In short, I am HAPPY now. Though times are tough, no going for holiday, no staycation in a nice hotel, no short getaway, overall, I AM THANKFULL, for all the things that I have. Of course, I want more but for the better of our family. So that, I can send my kids to good school, get good education, let them learned things that they like for instance, soccer, ballet, painting, horse riding..etc. And I want them to be happy and be a good muslim/muslimah. Never in my life, I dream of this life that I am leading now. Though I am far away from my parents, which i missed them terribly, I am glad that I am given the opportunity to stay overseas and raised our kids in a muslim country. The kids are exposed to different culture and languages. They learned arabic & french. And they speak fluent english and now I am trying to teach them my mother tongue which is Malay language. After serious thought, I admit that our language is as important as other else languages. guilty as charge.
Lastly, I hope that I will change for the better, much better muslim, wife, mother . And as Ellen puts it * bye and be kind to one another*!

cheers

a year on..

2011-11-13T19:21:00.000+04:00

A year had passed by so quickly since our move from Singapore on 28th September 2010 to Dubai, UAE. Times are tough eversince that incident but we're trying our best to stay here. Our savings are running low and our online business is not doing that well either. We have cut down ALOT and buy things that ONLY IMPORTANT. I pity the children caused we have stop buying toys for them. Everytime one of them asked for a toy and i have to said *NO*, really breaks my heart. And everytime I have to explain to them why I ddnt get what they ask for.
But I still count my blessings caused I still have a roof over my head and food on my table. I still have my health and a loving husband. And most importantly I have my beautiful children with me. Without them, my life will be meaningless. I pity the husband caused he has to work very hard and stay in a job that he has lost interest to work at. Everyday, I pray that ALLAH will guide us and we will able to find a solution to our problem. Insya'ALLAH.
My hope is for my children to be happy and enjoy their childhood. And my husband will eventually will get a job that he loves & happy. And I am so looking forward to 2013 when we will finally able to solve our problem and get on with our life happily. And for my online business to be successful. It will be a bonus too if we get to move to australia or canada( dreaming ...)...

Lastly, I missed everyone in singapore...in laws included....;(

Baaacckk

2011-11-10T00:33:00.000+04:00

Hi immm baacccckkk! So many things to write n share .....my writing juice is flowing rapidly but I am feeling sooo sleepy coz it is already midnight, hubby n kids r stil playing at the basement..N here I am writing my blog using my iPad n couldnT upload any pictures! Suck!

Happy 9th Anniversary

2011-06-21T18:08:00.000+04:00

Happy Nine to us! May we will hv more years together....love u & our 4 angels!

A month ago...

2011-05-14T16:54:00.000+04:00

Today is exactly a month i ddnt write in my blog. The reason because I cannot upload any more pixs so I kind of *fed up*.
Alot of stuffs had happened for the past 1 month.
Firstly, we managed to settle that *problem* we had and are very thankful that ALLAH
has show us a way. N the best part, we will solat jemaah more often now and I can feel the peace.
Secondly, that last minute trip back to singapore when we received a very devastated phone call from my siblings saying that the doctor said my father has 50/50 chance of surviving.
Husband was so kind to book a ticket for all of us to go back although i told him I want to wait for few more days.
It was the best trip back when 5 days after the surgery father woke up and saw us and his eyes just light up. He was so happy to see me and my children. But of course, the going home part was the hardest for me. During that 10 days in spore, we managed to squeese some time to went to KL, malaysia to visit his sister. The 2nd day in KL, I was so happy to meet my bestie, nura & ezan and also raudhah for dinner. It was the best day of my life. Maya was happy to meet syira & auni too. I heart them very much. At that point of time, I wished I can move to KL and be with them. Surprisingly, nura has been in KL for 4 yrs! How time flies! I remembered the best time we had together when she was in dubai...priceless.
Anyhow, again i am so happy that hubby agreed to meet them although i can see that he was very tired already. hehe.
I wished I can stay longer in singapore but my children has school to attend and hubby has to go london for conference 2 weeks later.
I only get to see my sister norma once when i first arrived at the hospital and then she has ot work that whole week when I am there. I miss her.
She is the best sister to me.
I managed to shop for the kids and went to the saloon. Didnt get anything for me though. ;(

Finally, life still has to go on and i prayed that ALLAH will protect us and lessen the pain that my father is suffering now. Amin.

Love,

FRIENDs

2011-04-12T23:16:00.000+04:00

Before I starts to write this blog, I could like to say that it is not targeted to anyone, alive or dead, near or far, close or not close. hehe. I am going to write about what i or majority has observed and my *lame* conversation with a friend over a cup of T. I hope no one will be offended if they read this. I am writing based on general issue.

F.R.I.E.N.D.s ...where are you when I needed you most??

I could say that my life is far different from anyone i knew. At 18 yrs old, I met & fall in love with a guy that I could do anything for him. yes. I am that Naive. I had a wonderful teenage years until i turned 18 on 23rd june, 1990. My relationship with him was intense. STRESSFUL. But, I kept holding on. Along the way, I drifted away from my friends. One by one..they vanished. And since then, I was alone, with him. But, somehow, I managed to hide my friendship with 1 or 2 girls from my high school throughout my adulthood. Over the years, we lost contact on & off again. Hence, I don't hv many friends or shall i said a bestfriend.

The best memory I had was when a friend came & stayed with me for many years. But somehow, after she left, so does our friendship. So, I am not good with having a *friend* but I envy those people who has friend from their childhood or friend that are there for them. Yes, I am jealous. So when I get close to a friend, I will be over protective..but everytime that friend will go away. Most of the time, I am angry with myself, for getting too close to someone. And everytime, the person will move on to another friend and then somehow, they turned their back to me. They talked bad things about me when they themselves had said the same thing abt the person that they are close with him/her now. Somehow, I am the Bad guy.

Sometimes, I wonder can I buy friendship with money?. Because, when u have money, suddenly you become popular, friends come to look for you...but when u dont hv money or when u r in trouble, they just silently go away. Or maybe I am wrong.

Issit because they know I am a great & kind person (ehem), n they feel like vomit whenever they arearound me. hehe.

Am I that a bad person that my everymove or words make people dislike me? Dont they know that I am a victim too? If I had known that along the road, I will have to face this..I will still be the girl who *flips the magazine and sit one corner n not talk to anyone* at the dinner table. Hurray!

Anyway, after so many years without a friend..I am still thankful that on my wedding day 2 wonderful souls from my High school came. And on my 1st day at work on 2002, I have found a friend. She has been with me throughout the years and although we are now in different continent, we tried to stay in touch. Miss you babe. From her, for the 1st time I got to feel the joy of having a gal friend with you. Someone you can talk/joke and be yourself. Someone who judge you but still love you. Someone who knows that you are talking nonsense & doesnt mean to hurt anyone. Someone who laff at your silly jokes. Someone who knows that I will be there if they needed me.

But ALLAH is GREAT. HE give me another chance. HE let me have another friend. My new friendship with someone who is as crazy as I am. She never judge me or run away from me the moment I told her my hardship. Who always tried to find time to meet up for lunch or just a cup of T. THAT is what I call a friend. And I am thankful for this one friend.

Anyway, I still hv friends who has been with me for many years throughout my stay in dubai. Those are friends that know you very well (hopefully). Though many has their own activity nowadays, I believed we still cherish our friendship and we know that If we ask for help, they will give their very best.

Finally, I believed everyone has their own *groupie* or friend that they are very close with. I know I hv mine. I know who they are and I know they regard me as their bestie too. To N, M and L..thank you for being a wonderful friend to me. I am very lucky to hv you guys as a friend.

cheers to friendship,

Happy 34th Girlfrriend!!

2011-04-10T18:44:00.000+04:00

A shoutout to my best friend, Nur Azira..Happy 34th birthday today!!!! May your wished (ehem) come true!

Enjoyed your day babe..sorry for not celebrating your birthday with you this year!!!

Hugs & Love,

Adam boy & grandpa

2011-04-09T20:37:00.000+04:00

When I saw this picture from my nephew's Facebook, my heart melt. The best picture of my two precious person in my life. My 18 months old baby boy & my 75 yrs old father.

I could stare at the picture every time and still feel overwhelmed.

To my baby boy, you're lucky to hv met your grandpa..he is the best daddy to me!

Love,

HELP

2011-03-30T12:52:00.000+04:00

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY I CANNOT UPLOAD ANY MORE PICTURES TO MY BLOG. AND HOW CAN I ADD THE FLICKR ON MY BLOG.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Thankful

2011-03-23T17:57:00.000+04:00

We are into the 4th month of 2011. ALhamdullilah. Though times are hard for us now we somehow managed to pull thru this far. Amin. Allah knows best and I am thankful that HE make us stronger. Health wise & faith wise. We grew stronger as a family. My relationship with hubby get stronger and the kids are more nicer with each other. Even the maid is like a family and she is happy with us. Hopefully.

My prayers to ALLAH is to get us out of this hardship & make our future plan goes smoothly. And also I am thankful that i've made some new friends whom has helped me spiritually. Somehow, I got close with one of them and what a surprised when we found out I knew her younger sister when I was in high school. That was abt 20 yrs ago! hehe.

Nevertheless, I am really thankful that I still hv my husband & kids with me. They are my life. I love them so much. I am a proud mama.

with love,

spending time

2011-03-22T20:07:00.002+04:00

Hubby decided to bring the kids to the open beach at Jumeirah. So, my maid cooked some fried rice/hotdogs and nuggets to bring along. She even made home-made Ice-T!

We left our house around 4pm and headed straight to jumeirah. There were crowds but we found a place

to sit. The kids were super excited. I thought it will be hot sunny day but it turned out to be breezy & cold. Adam was shivering madly after only 5 mins in the water. I;ve never seen him shivered so bad before. He cannot even talk. I quickly covered him with a towel & a blanket and hugged him tightly. He was still shivering n i changed him to a new dry clothes & covered him again & let him have a bottle of warm milk. Faatin played by herself and refused to go into the water. She is afraid of water. Hubby, haq & maya really enjoyed themselves playing with the surfboard. They were laughing &giggling wheneverthe waves hit the shore.

We had our meal by the shore & boy they were hungry. hehe. Anyway, it was a fun day for everyone but they fell sick when we reached home. Haq & maya had running nose while hana & adam has fever. We gave them some medication and let them rest on saturday.

jules

re-do

2011-03-13T12:18:00.001+04:00

Hubby loves to re-arrange furniture in the house. Last 2 weekend we shifted the furnitures at the living room. Yesterday, we clean up the kid's room and throw some more the kid's toys. Some we will donate to charity. Now, since theres some space in the kid's room, we went to buy a sofa bed which hubby stubbornly wanted to purchase. I preferred the Day Bed but I dont want to argue with him coz I know he wont listen to me. I do not know why he cant change his idea to suit mine. He is always loves this idea of having sofa bed which I find 1st it is not practical and 2ndly, it is hideous! lolz. No offence to the person who design SOFABED. hah.

clean house,

cookie monster

2011-03-11T22:00:00.000+04:00

today, for the first time i try baking cookies and it turned out not so bad. hubby loves it and so does the kids. while doing the dough, suddenly i felt overwhelmed because it reminds me of my childhood when I helped my mother to bake cakes & cookies during Eid festival. I remembered she will let me lick the bowl of*unbake* dough and I love it very much. I quickly called my 4 yrs old to help me in the kitchen and it was fun & I felt great to instill this memory she had with me. To my mother, I misses you so much & you're the greatest mum ever!

snow white

2011-03-11T21:28:00.001+04:00

For this month, maya colour theme to school is WHITE. So I told her I am going to get a white princess dress for her. After thinking for a while, she told me she doesnt want to be white princess. She said she wants to be different from other girls. Being a fashionista, she requested to wear a white dress but NO princess dress. I chuckled when I heard what she said. At a tender age of 4 yrs old, she knows what she want & dont want? Though I am proud of her *maturity*, I felt sad that my baby is growing up too fast. ;(.
Luckily I found a nice 50's layered white dress which she loves very much. And on the day, she asked me to curl her hair, initially she wants to put a headband but she changes her mind & opt for a blue hairclip instead. hehe.

Mee bandung

2011-03-10T15:43:00.000+04:00

Mee bandung is one of my favourite dish. The one mum's make is the best and I hv tried several times to get to the original taste.........It is very healthy with lots n lots of vegetables and the gravy is not that spicy coz we put tomato sauce in it. We also put,fishball, cuttlefish ball, taufoo and anything that u want to put in it is ok.

sedap....

Hubby trip to Singapore

2011-03-07T23:11:00.000+04:00

Last week, hubby made a last minute plan to go back singapore to visit his best friend, who is having stomach cancer stage 4 already.
The moment he reached singapore on 1st March, he go to his sis's place to have a shower & off to the hospital to see his friend. His friend was touched & surprised that hubby came all the way from Dubai to see him. He got to meet almost most of his High School schoolmates. They hv not met abt 22 years old. They're going to hv a bbq on that week, on a saturday.
Hubby managed to go and see my parents and got some toys for the kids at Toy'r'us at vivo city. He also managed to squeeze some time to go Johor Bahru, malaysia to visit his dad.

But on friday morning, hubby got a bad news that his friend, Kamsan has passed away. May ALLAH bless his soul. He was glad that he went back to visit his friend. His bestfriend since Secondary one at Bouna Vista Secondary School, singapore.

At 3:30pm on a saturday,hubby arrived n we went to pick him up.

May ALLAH bless his soul & forgive his sins,

the new Me

2011-03-07T22:02:00.000+04:00

I have been wearing hijab (headscarf) for almost 4 yrs. I dont hv many shawls coz the one i like is very costly. The first headscarf hubby bought for me was abt Dhs500-Dhs750. It was branded. And I love the material which is made of silk. And they used swaroski crystals to design the name HANAYEN. Of coz few years down the road, I bought a few more black, grey, beige,red,yellow,blue, light beige etc. And I love to wear my hijab the Khaleeji style but I dont really know how to style it and after awhile, I am *lazy* to style my hijab. But recently, I saw a lot of arabs girls wear pashmina n they style their hijab very loosely but still modest. And I love how it falls on youand it was modern & stylish. So, im trying to try to wear that style. Here is the 1st Debut of Me. Latest pic taken this afternoon.

vogue,

chinese delicacy - goldenbun

2011-03-07T17:33:00.000+04:00

the other day i;ve tried & fall in love with an indian delicacy and today my another favourite delicacy is from China called golden buns. They fried the bun & you hv to dip it into a condensed milk n it is so yummy!!

hot & creamy,

halal steamboat

2011-03-07T17:18:00.000+04:00

when hubby was in singapore,i brought the kids to hv *steamboat*for lunch. We really enjoyed out meal coz we were so hungry.

yummy,

curling iron

2011-03-05T19:58:00.000+04:00

a friend gave me this curling iron that she swears will do wonders to ones' hair. It is easy to use and maya will loves it. It is easy to use if u know the tactic.

curly sue,

safe & sound

2011-03-01T10:28:00.000+04:00

Allahumdullilah, hubby just called to say he has arrived singapore safely. Its 2pm in Singapore and he is waiting for his sister to pick him up before he go to the hospital to visit his best friend who is now in ICU and have few more months to live. His bestfriend is suffering from stomach cancer stage 4 already. May ALLAH ease his pain & forgive him for all his sins. Amin.

Getting the kids ready to go ikea for breakfast and then going to pick up rini's children before i go to Mirdif City Centre to pay bills again. It will be a long day today.

see you soon,

have a safe journey, my love!

2011-03-01T03:00:00.000+04:00

people laughed at me when I told them I hv separation anxiety. they said it only happened to baby. well i dunno what it is but when everytime hubby is away, I will have this attack. Especially, at night I cldnt go to sleep, everytime when i tried to close my eyes, i started to feel breathless. Then I feel like crying and I will stay awake just because I hope that morning will come faster. I have no problem during the day. I can go about doing my stuffs. As long as I am busy, I wont start *missing* my husband, i will be fine.
Last year, when I went back to singapore for good, leaving hubby behind in dubai alone. I suffered separation anxiety/depression for 5 months. I will hybernate in my room surfing the internet though mostly I was at Facebook. I will not shower till late afternoon. I falls asleep while sitting watching tv. I ddnt go out much. I dont interact with my kids like before. I felt that I just want to stay in bed & let the day passed quickly and I will be reunited with my husband a year later. That is how i felt. I was moody n feeling tired always.
Is it because of my weight that I have this *illness*?
My weight just kept pilling on though I am a very light eater. I dont eat or snack that much.
It really sucks.
Now I hv to shop at BIGGER SIZE departments coz in that department, my size is the smallest. haha.

Anyway, hubby is away for 5 days coz he went back to singapore to visit his best friend, whom is now terminally ill.

I hope hubby cut short his trip & come back fast. We're misses him already.

bon voyage,

indian delicacy Dahi Puri

2011-02-26T16:21:00.000+04:00

I've discovered a delicacy which is very popular to the indians.Not red indian but indian from India. I always noticed they love to buy this food whenever I am at a food court. So one day, feeling very hungry and dunno what to eat and went n try this food. it is called Dahi Puri. It looks so mess up. lolz. I have to slowly eating it to make my tastebud adjust to the taste. It is made up of 6 round biscuit that they make a hole in the middle, stuff a cold dish like potato salad n some dahl, green chilli and then they poured yougurt on top of it ..lots of yougurt then they pour a syrup, chilli sauce...n scattered it something that i dunno what it is...Overall, u can taste, sweet,sour,hot & crispy all into one dish. lolz.....after a while, u will become a fan of it..coz now i hv become 1...lolz...

yum yum...

get well soon...

2011-02-26T15:46:00.000+04:00

*dusting*

I have been away for 1 week and though the place I was at have internet connection,they have blocked Facebook, blogspot and all others social network. Hence, I did not post regularly as much as i want.

Last sunday morning, around 4am, I was awaken by the crying of my 18months old baby boy. When I went over his room, my nanny was trying to pacify him. I noticed that his breathing is very hard. His chest was going up and down n very tense. Quickly, I woke up hubby and told him I am going to bring baby to the hospital. My journey from home to hospital is abt 30mins. I've reached Medcare Hospital at safa at about 5am.

The doctor came to examine him and baby has to use the nebulizer. He has bronchilities and breathless. His chest is wheezing and tight. Hubby came ard 10am to drop the other 3 kids. The two older one did not attend school. Then around noon, the doctor told me that baby has to be admitted. hubby took time off and arrived at the hospital 2 hours later. At 4pm, I drove back home to have the much needed shower & rest for a while. At 8plus, Ireachedthe hospitalagain & saw hubby's hand was full. Quickly, I took over the kids.
My baby boy was hospitalised for 5 days and alhamdullilah, he was discharged yesterday. During his stay in the hospital, my nanny was there with him. Though he was not well, he is still hyper & talkative and playful boy that we all fall in love ...get well soon my son....

my baby boy,

my first chocolate cake

2011-02-19T18:24:00.002+04:00

after been procrastinate for so long, finally i decided to try baking. So, off we went to carrefour and I got myself a Kenwood Mixer.After buying the ingredients to bake a simple chocolate cake, we went home very excited. hubby is in a good mood today so he decided to wash his 1993 polo volkswagon that he just collected from the garage for some repairs this morning. While hubby is busy washing his car, I was busy in the kitchen to bake my 1st cake. ;)

coco,

Mixer

2011-02-19T13:57:00.000+04:00

Isn't this so cute? Wish I can have this....

cupcake,

the ice-skater

2011-02-18T09:28:00.000+04:00

last friday after the boys watched BEN10 Live, we went to Arabian Centre coz I needed to get some make-up from MAC. Thereafter, we went to the Food Court to hv late lunch. There was a small ice-skating rink and maya wanted to try. Hubby let her. She was struggling for 30mins but after she got the momentum, she can actually skate.So happy for her. As for the rest, they played the bouncing castle or others FREEEplay area for the kids.I truely enjoyed watching them had fun,

ice ice baby,

I am a ballerina

2011-02-17T12:04:00.002+04:00

Maya turns to have a costume day. We hv to pay dhs20 for the foods & entertaiment. I stayed for 2 hours to take some pictures. The children are so cute in their costume. And maya wants to be a Ballerina.

cute,

coffee morning / doa selamat

2011-02-15T11:01:00.000+04:00

This morning kak lina invited us to her place for coffee morning/doa selamat (prayers). Before we start to eat, we pray Al Fateha for our Prophet Muhammad (s.a.w) and thereafter, we recited Surah Yassin for Kak saadiah's grandson who is going to have an operation on his tiny heart and also I prayed for us. Hopefully, ALLAH give us strength & guidance for the difficulties we are facing now. InsyaALLAH. After the prayers, while we were eating, kak lina & ruby had a karaoke session. It was hilarious. The spread were so delicious. Our local food which i missed so much were prepared by kak lina and some of the ladies.

great friends,

Happy engagement day to amalina!

2011-02-12T19:39:00.000+04:00

congrats to niece who got engaged today! may you thru this engagement period a smooth one. Too bad, I am not there to witness this joyous day of yours. InsyaALLAH, you will have a wonderful wedding day in 2 yrs time.

cheers,

Ben 10 LIVE

2011-02-12T19:07:00.000+04:00

We let our 7 yrs old to watch Ben10 Live show with his friends, michael & Aj. We drop them at Dubai Airport Expo and remind them not to wonder around and stick to each other. At 4:30pm, we went back to the expo and waited for the show to finish. I was so relieved when I saw my son & his two friends came out from the theater looking happy & laughing away.

alien force,

soccer academy

2011-02-12T11:32:00.000+04:00

we saw an advert on soccer academy at SPINNEYS and decided to enrol haqeem for the course. The class is held opposite our house at Mirdif Park every friday at 10:30am.

Haqeem was excited and always looking forward for it. So, yesterday, we woke up early and everybody went to the park to give haqeem a moral support. Never in my life,I watch any soccer game but when you become a mummy and have a 7 yrs old boy, you're changed. I was cheering for him whenever he got the ball and I got excited when he score one or two goals! He was so happy. And I am so proud of him to be able to listen to his coach instructions and he is a natural when it comes to team work. He did not hoard the ball to himself but he knows when to pass the ball to his team-mates. He build a sense of trust and when they lost, he tried harder and encourage his teammates to do better. Mummy is so happy that you're enjoyed yourself, my boy.

goal!

breakfast time

2011-02-10T20:23:00.000+04:00

i lurve when they sat down together & hv their breakfast w/o fighting or arguing. heh.

cherrios,

sister forever

2011-02-07T17:18:00.001+04:00

the girls were so quiet so i went upstairs to check on them and to my surprised, they were playing together(which is very rare) and they looked so cute..

luv,

Jebel Hafeet (Hafeet Mountain)

2011-02-06T22:00:00.000+04:00

Last weekend, our road trip to Jebel Hafeet with wan's family was a great one. The last time we went there when I was pregnant with maya ( 4 yrs ago!). No matter how many times we've been up there, the view still very breathtaking for me. It was cold & windy. Driving up the mountain was a fun trip for the kids but I got scared especially making the turn.

my fantastic four posed for the camera b4 we leave for our road trip

wan & alia with adam

the hotel at the edge of the mountain which i lovingly call ABDUL WAHAB villa

we had picnic lunch at the bottom of the mountain where hot springs run thru the small canal

road trip,

a friend in need is a friend indeed NOT!

2011-02-06T20:51:00.000+04:00

by nature i am a very patience person. it is very hard for me to get angry and/or to curse & swear at a person. my tolerance level is very high and I can still be cool or friendly with a person eventhough I know he/she has hurt me physically or emotionally.
but recently, a dear or shall i said a close friend has put my husband life and ours in turmoil. a friend whom my husband trusted so much and willing to give his life. unfortunately, it was a hard lesson to my husband when his friend backstabbed him.
as for me, i can be very cool when someone is hurting me but when it comes to my husband & children, I will go berserk. they unleashed the beast in me and it is not a nice picture. I know that I hv to let ALLAH punish this people but I am so angry. Too angry that seeing their pictures can make my whole day a lousy one. And because of this problem we are facing, my relationship with hubby got very tense. I tried to stay strong for him but I am stress too thinking about *what if*. I dare not think about tomorrow coz I wished tomorrow will never come. I wished I had not know them. I dunno how many friends of mine read my blog(coz not all knew abt this blog), but if YOU read this. REMEMBER this:I shall not forgive what u hv caused my family thru. I need to find closure coz I do not want to hv more sins by cursing & swearing at you everyday. So for now, I pray that ALLAH will protect us and make our journey in life a smooth one & we shall find a solution to settle the problem that u had caused us. And only ALLAH can punish you as much as what you hv done to me, my husband and my 4 children.

allahur' akbar,

Crocs

2011-02-05T17:23:00.001+04:00

it was CROC's sale today and aisha came & pick me up and drove to AL Quoz. hubby is out playing golf at RAS with glenn & gary. If I buy at retail price will be Dhs600 for 4 pairs of crocs but today I paid Dhs270, hence I saved Dhs330 for it. What a good bargain! :)

happy campers,

desperately seeking peace

2011-02-05T10:31:00.000+04:00

my husband is the nicest person. he can go an extra mile to help others eventhough most of the time he doesnt hv the means to do so. and of course, people likes him for his kindness.
And because of that, he got into trouble when he helped a friend. A friend whom he trusted so much and willing to give his life to him. because of this friend, our life is in turmoil. I dare not think so far for now, every morning i woke up, I pray to ALLAH today is not the day for that *big* thing. we ddnt share our problem with our family becoz we knew they cannot help us. As it is, everybody has their own problem, so we dont want to burden them with ours.
we love dubai and we sincerely wants to bring up our kids here but due to circumstances, i think it is impossible. Anyhow, I will pray. And to that person who makes our life a living hell, I SHALL NOT FORGIVE YOU and it will be the end of our friendship. I can take a whole lot of shit from you, but when it comes to my children, I will draw a line. Once my kids are sad n couldnt enjoy their childhood. that will be it. I dont want you as my friend or in our life anymore. Such a big liar u r and a back stabber. You took advantage of my husband kindness & trust. The biggest mistakes my husband made is to hv a friend like you.

peace,

character day

2011-02-03T19:27:00.000+04:00

My 7 yrs old is in Grade 2 at American International School in Dubai. He loves school and always looking forward to go school. Today they're having *What I want to be when I grow up* Day.. Initially, he wanted to be a policeman but I couldnt find anything police costume. Finally, he decided to be a footballer. I went to karama where it is a heaven for Fake products. You can find fake LV, GUCCI, MULBERRY, CHLOE..etc. Anything you want, they have it there. lolz. We went to get his Manchester U jersey for Dhs30 (S$12).

handsome,

APPLE phone

2011-02-01T20:21:00.000+04:00

Hubby bought for me a NOKIA E72 last year in Johore Bahru, Malaysia at 12midnight, 7 hours before he was due to take his flight back to dubai. I want a Iphone at that time but we can't find it there.
Fast forward, I am sick of not able to use the phone to it full potential coz I am using a prepaid top up credit. In order for me to surf the internet, access to my FB and what-they-got I have to apply for a fix line. Since I dont want to add on to another bill to our household,I forgo the idea.
So, I thought why not I just get a cheap phone where I can Make/receive call & sms ONLY. And the hunt began this morning when I decided to go to Dragonmart to get one. Finally, I got a phone that is simple & nice. The bad news, it is a CHINAPHONE. hehehe..But then, issnt almost everything is MADE IN CHINA. I never been happier before and today was the best day.

excited,

happy birthday,nadeen!

2011-01-30T10:20:00.001+04:00

Happy 4th Birthday, Nadeen Murni!!

cheers,

churros

2011-01-28T17:48:00.000+04:00

today is weekend so i decided to make churros for the kids. My first time trying though. It turned out not so bad but I had hard time squeezing the dough out from the nozzel. Hana & adam loves it. I prefer eating it without dipping into the chocolate sauce. Dont mind doing it another time for the kids.

Cheers,

pink day

2011-01-27T16:49:00.000+04:00

Today is PINK day for the kinder classes. 3 days before the actual day I went to DragonMart to get a costume which I saw the other day.
When maya put it on, she has the widest smile. At school,she was so proud when everyone complimented that she looked pretty. She was the happiest person today.

pinky,

potterybarn NOT!

2011-01-27T11:20:00.001+04:00

My little project has finished. I bought some decals to paste on the kid's bedroom and it turned out nice. Hopefully, they want to sleep in their room from today onwards. Hubby is trying to get the kids sleep in their own room but I was a little bit reluntant. They seems to grow up so fast and i miss my babies. The only one who haven't has the luxury of sleeping with us is my youngest baby. Right now, he is very happy sleeping with the nanny. I AM JEALOUS. So, i told hubby to let the little rugrat sleeping with us. The 3 bigger rugrats will learn to sleep in their room.
I have thrown away ALOT of their toys and now the room is more spacious compared to the last time. Anyway, we hv stop buying toys for the kids coz we want them to learn to appreciate what they have. The only time we will get for them toy is when their birthday or when they do extremely well in their studies.

Maya & Hana shared a bed. While haq will sleep on his own.

Entrance to their room.

The place for them to sit & read book.

Haq's bed.

Maya's bed.

The wall decal I got from the school bookfair.

happy,

Happy birthday,Father!!

2011-01-26T23:47:00.001+04:00

a year has passed so quickly. sometime last year at this date, I got to celebrate my father's birthday along with my sister and her family and we had seafood dinner at marsiling. after so many years, living overseas, last year I was the happiest to finally get to be with my parents again. TODAY, is his birthday again.I am thankful to ALLAH to let my dad live another year. Despite the pain he is going thru I believed he is happy to have live this far. He is the one who teaches me about life. Without him, I am not what I am today.
Happy birthday dad! I love and misses you so much!

Hugs,

No tooth fairy

2011-01-26T16:14:00.001+04:00

My 7 yrs old lost his front tooth yesterday. The other one is loose too and waiting for the moment to drop. This morning he woke up dissapointed because the tooth fairy ddnt come. He looked so sad and I told him maybe the tooth fairy is busy and will come again another day. But how am I going to tell him TOOTH FAIRY is like SANTA CLAUS...they are not real. Will I break his tiny vulnerable heart, will this his first dissappointment? Furthermore,I hv to tell hm that we are muslim and we are not supposed to belief on tooth fairy or santa claus. How am I going to explain to him and not make him feel sad?

My baby is not a baby anymore.

dont grow so fast, can?

IGLOO

2011-01-25T16:18:00.000+04:00

Last week, i brought my 7 yrs old to the hypermarket. While we were looking at ice cream, he pointed at me to this Igloo Sandwich ice cream. I was reluntant to buy for him coz I thought he just want to waste it afterwards. But he assured me that THIS IS MY FAV ice cream. I told him when did he ate this. He said he got to know abt sandwich ice cream from maya's strawberry shortcake DVD. hehe. He was overjoyed when I bought it.

To my surprised, the ice cream is nice. Not to *biscuit-ty or sweet*. And the kids love it very much. So, today i bght another box and my son cant wait to eat this after lunch.

thumbs up,

to the park we went

2011-01-24T18:32:00.000+04:00

Last weekend,on saturday, we brought the kids to Mirdif Park across our house. Despite the cold weather, the kids were perspiring because they were very active.

Adam enjoyed sitting on his push-chair while my nanny push him around the field doing her work-out. I brought some biscuits & choco-pie and aisha eat a few becoz she was very hungry.

We stayed for about 2 hours and the kids refused to go back and we promised them we will do it again on every Thursday or when aunty aisha is off.

As usual, they had so much fun, after shower & dinner they were so tired and falls asleep by 9 plus. That leave mummy & daddy some time to catch up on.

Love,

dance

2011-01-23T20:27:00.000+04:00

Its 8pm, hubby is not back yet. I've just downloaded songs and I asked
the kids to dance.
They were laughing & giggling. I looked so comical when i dance because of my
HUGe size. haha..the kids are sweating & hv a great time!
Before that they were playing the computer .....

And hana is busy playing the itouch.

bless,

Glee Marry You Full Video HQ

2011-01-23T15:49:00.000+04:00

enjoy,

Auburn - Perfect two (w/ lyrics)

2011-01-22T23:15:00.000+04:00

to my wonderful husband...

Love,

Lost generation

2011-01-22T22:51:00.000+04:00

Please read *got this from other blogger and I would like to share w my readers
LOST GENERATION

'Happiness comes from within'
is a lie, and
'Money will make me happy'
So in thirty years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life.
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
worK
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
this is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
Thirty years from now I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
EnvironmeNtal destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it.
2. Now read each line, starting from the last line to the first ine (reverse it). Did you like that? I loved it, and it reinforced, for me, all the thousands of wonderful things we can teach our children as teachers, mothers, fathers, role models.

Cheers,

singapore family day carnival 2011

2011-01-22T17:25:00.002+04:00

Our 2nd time since 2006 attended Singapore Family Day in Dubai.
We reached the Etisalat Sports Academy at around 3pm. We were 1 hour late.
It was pouring and with the winter cold...we were shivering.
We never thought the need of having an umbrella in Dubai, hence, we were
drenched.
Despite the heavy downpour, they continue the events.
And haqeem is the only boy who played on the bouncing castle although
it was wet & muddy.
He truely enjoyed himself.
My husband and I ddnt stop him coz we want him to hv fun and be
more *manly*. lolz. Husband has been complaining that I sheltered
him too much by not allowing him to play outside or under the sun. He told me that
I hv to let the boy be a boy and active. heh. So yesterday, though I am worried he might
fall ill and dirty, I have to ignore it and prove to my hubby that I am OK with it. lolz.

Anyway, upon entry, we were given a goodybag. Unfortunately, they ddnt give me the one
with the poncho(raincoat)in it. Thus, hubby got drench when he was at the field taking care
of the girls.
Maya was enjoying herself too. Playing & running around in the field.
Whereas, hana kept clinging on to daddy.
Adam was happy to run free in the big field.

I went to collect the food with the food vouchers. The Menu : indian rojak, nasi lemak V, nasi lemak w chicken, paratha w curry and Tahu Goreng. Snacks and assorted ofwaters. For dinner, they cater food from Millinium Hotel and they had BBQ too. The food was OK.

They have games, fire show, live band performed and LUCKY DRAW. They invited DJ Justin from singapore and he was hilarious. Speaking perfect *MAT ROCK (Rockers) malay, chinese, english, thai.

I was aiming (read :hoping) to win an IPAD. So does everyone there. lolz.
Anyhow,it was a great day for us despite the heavy rain.
The kids were exhausted and were cranky when we reached home.
They had their bath and very late dinner b4 they dozed off at 11pm.
The SignBoard

The path lead to the big Field

Haqeem in his fav CARS sweatersuit

Adam in his New Nike sweatersuit

Hana in herJUICY COURTURE

Husband & adam

Nadeen, hana and maya with aunty aisha

Me and Aisha

Haq at the bouncing castle

yuni (my helper), adam and aunty aisha

LOVE,

blog

2011-01-21T15:17:00.000+04:00

Today i spend my time re-design my blog.
I hv not finished it coz I am still couldnt decide whether
to put our family picture on the HEADER.
Actually, I am still figuring out how to do it. heh.

Anyway, the weather is so cold today.
The cloud has turned dark and it seems it is going to rain.
I hope not.
Coz we are ready to go out to attend our first Singapore Family Day Carnival
at Al Ghusais.
The kids are all ready & excited.

Will blog about it later.
ciao!

Helping out

2011-01-20T11:26:00.001+04:00

By next week I am going to start fetching my friend's children
from school.
They studied the same school as my kids so I hv no problem
helping out. Anyway, I am going to earn some cash doing it
so it is a win-win situation.
Hopefully, ALLAH will protect us while I am driving
on the road with my children & others on board.

Hope

2011-01-18T16:35:00.001+04:00

I wished I can write freely in my blog.
Things that I am facing now and the frustrations of
all that.
Unfortunately,I hv to limit what I want to write, sometimes
I missed the old-fashion way. TheDiary.
Anyhow, I really hope that this year will be a better year
for my family.
I hope my husband will still hv his job & good health.
My kids are happy and healthy.
My maid can eventually save up money for herself instead of sending
every single cents back home.
And I will start to lose weight & be healthy.

I wished that the person(s) who make our life a living hell will
\get his/her retribution.
I am not being mean but because of them.
My kids have to suffer.
My relationship with hubby very tense because he is always
in a bad mood.....
And sometimes I really dont know what to do/or say
to minimise his stress.
Hence, I too became very moody & short temper w my kiddos.
I hv done my best and I really hope that this hardship that
we are facing will go away soon. InsyaALLAH.

At the meantime, I am trying to think of a way where
i can work from home. Any idea?

winter is finally here

2011-01-13T18:18:00.004+04:00

Today the weather is extremely cold. Winter is here already.

I opened the balcony door to let the cold wind enter the house.

No Air-con is needed. ;)

Hubby is on medical leave and he was resting n working from home
the whole afternoon.
By 6pm, night falls. I made banana fritters for snack requested by
hubby and microwave popcorn for the kids.

The kids are enjoying themselves...
This kind of weather is best time to cuddle with love ones.

Unfortunately, hubby is busy playing his Playstation 3.lol
My 7 yrs old is busy playing games from the computer.
My 4 yrs old is busy playing *house* with her 3 yrs old
sister in their room with the nanny.
My 1 yr old boy is busy climbing the sofa and eating
and climbing. lolz

So much for cuddling. eh.

Happy weekend!

Asthma attack

2011-01-13T15:49:00.001+04:00

Yesterday, I received a call from hubby's colleague.
My husband got a sevear asthma attack and they had to call the ambulance
to bring him to WELCARE Hospital in AL Garhoud.
At that time I was out with my girl at Arabian Centre.
I rushed home to get ready but his friend called me and said
his condition is stablized except for his swollen eyes.
The asthma was caused by the allergy reaction.
He caught the allergy after eating his breakfast of anchovies fritters
which was prepared by my maid.
And then he took his multi-vitamins right after the meal.
So i guessed the density of the anchovies do amok to his
system when he took his vitamins.
Anyhow, I too caught the asthma by very mild. AFter I ate two
pieces of the fritters. I coughed so hard and had difficulty breathing.
Luckily, I have my spare ventolins pump and quickly took 3 breath.

Today, he is better except for his swollen eyes.
I thank GOD that nothing serious happened to my hubby.
Take care,habibie.

Mr & Mrs Mohamed Yusof

2011-01-12T16:51:00.001+04:00

This is us on New year 2011.
Look how tired hubby was and how FAAAAT I am.

My resolution is the same as those previous years.
I guessed you know what it is. Lolz.

My New Ipod

2011-01-12T09:49:00.001+04:00

Finally!!! Hubby bought me a brand new Ipod 5th generation
to replace my 2nd hand Ipod 3rd generation which
I have lost it!
I was so surprised when he agreed to get it for me, maybe because
he is sick of listening to my whining everyday! hahah..
Thank you love for the gift!!

Friend Forever

2011-01-11T22:47:00.002+04:00

My bestfriend came to dubai for a short trip with her son.
The last time I saw her was in June 2010.
When you are surrounded with the people who know u very well, it seems very easy
to continue the conversation from where we left off.
Theres so many things to talk about but too bad she can only stay for few hours before
rushing off to meet her sis-in-law.
Anyhow,I am glad to hv met her and fiza, her cousin.
I truely enjoyed myself that day.

kidszaniaTIME

2011-01-11T22:28:00.000+04:00

During the school holidays in December, as promised hubby brought
the kids to kidszania.
The kids were excited and had been looking forward to this trip.
You can go to http://www.kidszania.com/ to check out the place.
It consists of 30 over vendors where the kids can hv a role-play and at the same
time earn some kidszania Dollar. The kids can try to be a chef, Pilot, fireman,work in a bank
a Model runway..etc.
The entry fees is Dhs120(6yrs-12yrs)Dhs95(4yrs-6yrs) FREE(below 3yrsold).
We let the nanny go with the 3 kids and we took the1 yr old with us.
Since we came at 7.30pm they couldnt finish the whole play thus we promised them another
day. But at Midnight and abt 5 hours in kidszania, i assumed they will be exhausted but
I was wrong. They came out with a wide smile on their faces and they told us
their little adventure all the way home. Finally, by 2am, they all fall asleep.
I was so happy that they had enjoyed themselves.

House No. 8

2011-01-11T16:30:00.001+04:00

Today I gonna write a few entries, since the internet connection
is very excellent.

We hv to move often when the rental in dubai was going UP UP & UP.
So we hv to find a cheaper rents within our budget. Hence, every house I will
take pictures of the interior & exterior as a memory. And also, to share with my
family back in singapore the condition or the lifestyle I lead in dubai. So that,
they wont get worried and they could see that Dubai is just like singapore.
Clean & Safe.

Finally, we can afford to move to mirdif when the rents in dubai went
crashing down rapidly for the past 2 yrs. We settled for a 2 bedroom double-storey
villa with shared swimming pool. The area is very easy to locate and we are a stone
away from the biggest mall, Mirdif City Centre.

Unfortunately, we hv to enrol the kids into a new school near our place.
We managed to get a seat at American International School in Al ghusais and so
far the kids are fine. The curriculum is Arabic/US. But as a muslim, I am
glad that my kids are starting to learn Islamic Studies.

Above are some pictures. Enjoyz.

4 days later..

2011-01-04T16:01:00.002+04:00

Happy 2011 everybody!

Hope you'll had a great time on New Year's eve..
For me, it was a gloomy transition from 2010 to 2011,
coz we're facing a HUGE problem which can only
be resolved if the RESPONSIBLE person took responsibility of his
own doing, which indirectly affected us.

But still, I have hope for the best this 2011.
I hope I can religiously do my duty as a muslim to pray 5 times everyday,
without excuses. I reackon since I am a housewife, I have the previledge to do my
duty. I hope we will improve on our financial part. I hope my husband will
be as healthy as a bull. I hope my family be happy. I hope the best for my children.
And the list goes on.

2010 was a very tiring year for me.
I moved back to singapore late 2009 and stayed in singapore with the kids
for 10 months.
Within that 10 months, I finally realised I have no life.
No friends. No self-esteem. It really make me think very hard what I want
in my life. Though I was happy to be reunited with my old school mates,
I can feel the aloofness of some of them.
And the one I thought that I can be frank & close with, dissapoint me.
But I still appreciate she make an effort to be kind to me.
The best part of 2010, was the chance to stay at my own house and with my parents.
And I get to mingle with my nieces & nephews which i missed their craziness so much.
And get to meet my best friend, maria, again n went out with her couple of times
and I missed you galfriend.
After 10 months we moved back to dubai.

Our life is still uncertain.
I prayed to ALLAH to make 2011 a better year for us. Give me strength to face
any obstacles that you had install for us. And give me courage so that I can protect
my kids from any sorrows.
InsyaALLAH.

my ipod

2010-12-21T22:42:00.004+04:00

I know that I hv to stop talking/thinking about my ipod...

But darn, I cldnt stop.

By nature,I loves all gadgets. When I was single,I used to blow my

payday on gadgets.

Latest ones.

But now, I am lost.

Anyway,I justbought my USED Ipod in singapore.

Boy, I was so happy. Thrilled is the word.

I wanted this for so long and finally, I gotit.

sadly,after 2 months I lost my Ipod.

Either I drop it somewhere or someone stole from my handbag.

I still hoping miracle do happen.

I can only HOPE.

Happy Islamic New Year!

2010-12-06T22:13:00.002+04:00

I prayed to ALLAH to bless us with good health and fortune.
To make our journey in life a smooth one and protects my husband,
children, parents and siblings from misfortune.

Happy New Year to ALL MUSLIMS in the world!

Moody

2010-11-29T15:32:00.002+04:00

My feelings for the past few days was MOODY.
Why?
Coz I have lost/misplaced my Ipod TOUCH.
I am extremely moody and sad.
I felt like crying but theres no tears.
Why so dramatic?
Coz I bought it with my hard earned money when I was
in singapore.
I have been bugging hubby to buy for me since 2005 when it was
the craze or fashionable to have an Ipod.
And FINALLY, I got it and I was so happy.

My happiness last only for 2 months and then I lost/misplaced it.
I searched the whole house.
I searched in my car.
I searched in all my bags.
NOTHING.

Writing about it make me want to cry.
It is not easy for me to get another one.

Anyway, I hope a miracle will happen and it will appear
soon.

For now, I just can hope and pray.

the neglected

2010-11-25T15:37:00.003+04:00

She is 2 yrs and 4 months.
When she cry, she literally SCREAMING at the top of her voice and
sometimes I got very annoyed, thus, I always harsh with her.
But in fact, she is a very adorable girl.
She has the sweetest smile.
Her eyes just sparkle brightly.
And she learned very fast from her older siblings.

I was too preoccuppied with my two elder kids & youngest bb that
she is always ignored by me.
Guilty as charge.
And she always try to get my attention and I always yell at her.
She loves to sit on my lap and most of the time I will scold her for
disturbing me. And then she starts wailing loudly. And that
get into my nerves and I started to get angry with her.
And thereafter, I feel so guily. very guilty.

I dont know why I always get frustrated with her. Bad bad mummy i am. ;(
Nonetheless, whenever nobody is around..I will always give my
attention to her, kisses her, hugs her and tell story to her.
ANd she will be very very happy.

And now, I noticed that she has grown up so fast.
She can talk very well. In a sentence and clearly.
She can express herself very clearly.
She loves to imitate what maya doing.

Sometimes it is hard for me to give my attention to the
fantastic FOUR. I tried my best and I hope that they know that
I love them equally.
Each of my children has their own character.
and each of them is special to me.
I tried not to have a *FAVOURITE*.
so far so good. ;)

Eid Ahda 2010

2010-11-17T18:02:00.005+04:00

Dubai celebrated Eid Ahda or Hari Raya Haji yesterday.
Singapore celebrate it today.
I ddnt prepared anything until the last minute when I felt that
I have to continue the tradition of having Eids' dishes.
So, I asked my helper to prepare the ingredients and I cooked
ayam masak merah (which is a must) and lontong with gravy(lauk lemak),
which i later beginning to feel the atmosphere of Eid.
I pitied my children coz they ddnt get to feel how i felt when i was young
celebrating Eid. It was fun & exciting.
1 week prior to Eid, I excitedly admiring my new clothes/shoes.
I cannot wait to put it on and feel proud.
But now, my children dont care abt Eid nor new shoes or clothes.

anyway, as long as they understand and know the meaning of Eid Ahda.
I am Happy.

So, what we do yesterday?
We stayed at home till 5plus and went to Global Village.
OMG, after so many years, there are still people flocking
into GV. And I am one of them. lolz.

over the years they improvised their system.
taking singapore as an example.
so, initially, it was free for all
NO entry charge.
then they imposed entry fees.
it was dhs5 for the first yr and gradually they increased to dhs15 per person.

And this year they lower down the entry fee to dhs10 per person BUT
they charge parking for those we want to park their cars near
the entrance. lolz.
Parking dhs40.

The stuffs they carried were almost the same as the past years.
But i like EGYPT pavillion for their colourful and beautiful
abayas & jalabiyas. The priced quite steep.
I CAN ONLY SEE. lolz.

ok, that is basically how i spend my Eid Ahda.
Tomorrow IF hubby is well, we might go to Al AIN zoo to visit the
animals. ;)

Happy Eid Ahda Everyone!

xoxo

circa 2001

2010-11-03T13:41:00.002+04:00

yesterday, i talked about my weight.

How much i missed being slim and cld fit into those gorgeous clothes.

Sometimes I HATE shopping because FAT clothes are expensive yet out-dated.

Anyhow, just for the thrilled.

I am going to show u my pix few years ago. Thnanks to my newphew...

Weight issue

2010-11-02T13:01:00.004+04:00

Frankly, i never really bothered about my size.

After giving birth to 4 beautiful angels, I take it as an excused for my

PLUS size.

Until, I went back to singapore and met my old schoolmates that

it hit me real hard that I AM REALLY FAT (obese.)
I used to be slim amongst them when we were in high school but now

I am the FAAATTEESSST.

And when i saw this picture of me..I knew i hv to do something REALLY

fast.

Firstly, I want to do it for my health because I am approaching the 4-0 in 2 years time.

Secondly, I want my kids to be proud of their mummy and they will stop calling me

*fat mama*. (though it was music to my ears)..

Thirdly, I want to grow old graciously and make hubby proud of me again coz

he has been complaining about my weight like FOREVERR...

And lastly, for my sake.. for vanity..and for all the beautiful clothes out there

that make me moody everytime i go shopping and I couldnt fit

into those gorgeous blouses/dress/etc....

And I hope I stop giving myself an excuse for turning out this way. Before, I used

to tell myself that GOD give me this body so that I wont make

my hubby bankrupt by shopping. lolz. excuses. excuses. excuses.

The truth is, I give up long time ago about my *pregnant* looking tummy.
If u observe, I eat very little. I give up on chocolate and ice cream.

I snack less. I dont sleep in the afternoon. But I kept on putting on weight

and my tummy getting bigger.

Theres one point in time i blame it on TYROID.

But I dare not go to the clinic to hv myself check but I think I have
to go for whole body check up soon.

So now, tell me how can i lose THEESSEEE weight and be healthy again.

Farewell

2010-10-31T13:31:00.002+04:00

Thanks Siti, Sri and sunita for the farewell treat at Hajjah maimunah on my last day stay in singapore. So glad that we are reunited again after been 10 yrs we *lost* each other.
Hope this reunion will last till we all grow old and wrinkle.
and to sri ..maya said *this girl is so pretty and i am not pretty*..hihihiih...

Thank you girls!

Hugs & Kisses

Red is the colour

2010-10-19T21:06:00.002+04:00

Hi, my name is GUCCI,
I am red. I am made of leather.
I smell nice and it will look great
on your shoulder.
So, r u keen?

our first try

2010-10-19T17:17:00.002+04:00

Since we are staying near each other, I suggested to aisha to have

a baking session on one of her off days.

While the kids went for a swim, aisha started baking using the

instant mixture that is available in any local supermarket

around here.

The kids were overjoyed to have cupcakes after the swim.

I am looking forward to our next baking session.

a new beginning..

2010-10-17T16:54:00.003+04:00

within 7 days we have hunted and moved to our new house.

finally, we settled for a small 2bdroom villa in mirdiff.

a new house. a new beginning. May this house brings more joy and rezeki.

InsyaALLAH...

what went wrong?

2010-09-28T17:57:00.002+04:00

I wonder what went wrong?
The last time we met was during Eid.
All were merry & friendly.
Everybody was nice...Everthing was fine.
Few weeks later, things go sour.
They ignored us.
They shut us out.
They pretend that we dont exist.

why? what happened?
And instead of me getting angry with them for *playing us out*..they cleverly
turned the table. ANd make me wonder did i in any way offended them?
How clever. Indeed.

Told a friend. And she suggested to just ignored. I mean, if she is true friend
atleast she came forward and tell us why.
If it is really my fault, then I would apologised if it hurts her.
Afterfall, human do err. Sometimes we said things without thinking.
Sometimes to us it was OK, but not to somebody else.
ANd if I am THAT friend, I will tell my friend about it.
I will tell her why I am angry/dissappointed..etc.

Afterall, the chances of us bumping into each other is high.
We are just a small group.
Your friends are mine, and mine are yours.

So friend, if you read this..
and if u truely treasure our friendship eventhough we knew each other only
for 2 years...
I hope you come forward and tell me whats wrong
I deserved to explain myself if I am at wrong.
And this friendship meant alot to me.

Happy Birthday darling!

2010-09-22T07:15:00.003+04:00

happy 38th birthday and two more years you will be 40! lolz
sorry we cant be there to celebrate your bday with you but we are all
excited that we're going to be united again ...we shall have a belated
birthday dinner soon, insyaALLAH...

Meanwhile, have a wonderful birthday and May ALLAH bless you with
all the goodness in life ...

Love...
julie
haq
maya
faatin
adam

Eid Mubarak 2010!!!

2010-09-18T10:54:00.003+04:00

We would like to wish all our families & friends, Eid Mubarak and
have a great Eid this year.
These is our 1st & last celebrated Eid in the comfort of our
own home in Singapore.....
Just when I have started to feel comfortable staying here...and barely 1 year we
are here, we're gonna move back to dubai (where we belong..hihihi)....
I am gonna missed my parents...the unpredictable weather...the shops across
my house...the malls..and the FOODs!!!!
Nevertheless, I am thankful to hubby for letting us stay here ...
Lastly, this is the best RAYA i had..I've never been so much happier....
the bonds I had with everyone is great....
Gonna missed them so much....

Eid Mubarak to everyone that i love..................

Letters To JULIET

2010-08-20T17:15:00.003+04:00

Finally, I managed to get LETTERS TO JULIET dvd from Johor bahru last night.
I have to thank my friend, nora hussain for driving me there just to get
dvds for me to watch.

I love the story.
We were into new technology and fast pace in our life now that
we forgot simple things like True love.
The story was written very simply.
About two human beings falls in love when they were teenager...
And they went their separate ways and married other people
but their ONE true love is always in their heart..
and after 50yrs, they met....
simple. no fancy side effect. no matix-ing...

I am afterall a sucker for true love...
TO me, I will cherish my true love forever...

And my true love is non other than..my fantastic four....

You're 1 already..adam boy!

2010-08-13T09:41:00.002+04:00

This little munchkin will turn 1 yr old on 15th august, 2010.

It felt like just few months back I gave birth to him. lolz...time reallly flies so fast.

He is now at the stage where he is standing up & learning to walk. He imitates what the elder

siblings are doing. And he is a fast learner. He loves to eat and will grab anything on the floor. lolz. And he will throw tantrums when he ddnt get his way. sigh. Cannot get enough of him because he is so super cute & lovable. He is very close to his nanny & grandma.

He always lights up the room with his cheeky smile and cute dimple, just like his big sister, maya has a dimple on her right cheeks. Everyone in the house adores him very much.

Happy 1 yr old, my little munchkin, Ilhan Adam!

Mummy loves u very much

Happy 4th Birthday Maya!

2010-08-13T09:27:00.002+04:00

I couldnt believed that my girl is turning 4th on 2nd August,2010.

How time flies.

Still remembered the day she was born & we brought her back to dubai

when she was just 2 weeks old.

Then we held a small party to celebrate her arrival with closest friends

in dubai.

In a blink, she grew up so fast and I missed her being a baby.

She was afterall a very good baby and toddler.

Love to dress up since she was 1 yr old and now she is good at posing

for the camera....

And now, she is a big sister to 1 bb sister & 1 bb brother and she adores them

very much.

She is really a girly girl..a girl that u can imagined to be..loves make up, loves

dressing up and very gently. Never raised her voice to her brothers or sister.

Never dare to hit them though sometimes she tried to be fierce with them but

then she will soften up.

A very thoughtful little girl and the only one who dare to call his daddy *silly monkey*..lolz..

A very sweet girl and will always want to tag along wherever i go.

Happy 4th Birthday, my little princess, Maya Asyura!

Mummy hope u hv a wonderful birthday party and May ALLAH bless

u with good health & wealth...study hard & be a good girl.

Love.mummy

Random thoughts

2010-06-30T22:12:00.002+04:00

MONEY.
It can kill you. It can make u lost self-esteem. it can make u helpless. And many
more negative thing.
Nothing good come out from it. And when u dont hv this, people will disrespect you.
People will easily threatened you. Coz they know u hv to NOTHING.

I know coz I have been thru it. The feelings is suck.

And worst, if the person said to you * u dont deserve it?*, when you hv been
thru alot with the person since the day you met. speechless.

just pure disspointment.

well, this is what life is about...some people are just lucky and some
just dont

As for now, I hope I can go thru this by myself , with no help from anyone.

Coz, as always I am a survivor. I always survived.

Last but not least..being accussed of things u ddnt do.....sad.

Eighth

2010-06-22T02:58:00.002+04:00

No fancy dinner.
No exchange gifts.
Nothing.
But, that doesnt matter as long as we are together and I am happy to have him
as my husband.
And deep down, we know that we love each other very much and we're
blessed with 4 beautiful kids ...

Happy 8th wedding anniversary on 21st june 2010, my darling..May our love will last forever after......!!!

irony

2010-06-18T15:11:00.002+04:00

what an irony, i thought i will enjoy my freedom in spore coz hubby will not be there but
sadly, I am unhappy. In fact, I misses my freedom more
in dubai. In dubai, I will hv my own free time after dropping hubby to work and
I am gonna missed the 20mins ride to work where I get to spend that little time
alone with hubby..That is the only time that we talked & discussed things. I will missed
that terribly.
I've realised that in dubai I hv some activities to do like being a chauffer to hubby & son. And i seldom go out with the kids to the mall. But in singapore, once i wakes up, I hv nothing to do. And the boredom really killing me softly. And I dont hv anyone to talk to and hv to rely
on MSN if anyone is online and if they care to chat with me.

Half a year has gone and another half to go thru life w/o hubby by my side. And I badly want to go n work becoz I will be bore staying at home.

Hopefully, ALLAH make my journey a smooth one. InsyaALLAH.